Today, friends, is my birthday. I’m more than halfway through my life. Well, if Jesus tarries and the creek don’t rise. I leave for work in a few minutes, after I clean up the cat puke in the bathtub. Seriously.
I just want to take a moment to say thanks. I’ve always been an analytical person, so thinking about things hasn’t been a problem. As I sit here, in midlife, I realize I haven’t been the best friend, wife or mother I could have been. I’ve had hangups and unforgiveness and misunderstandings and you name it. I can see where I’ve fallen short.
I want to do better. Heck, I try to do better. But I don’t always succeed. Despite me loving words and using them as a tool to express things, I struggle to find the right way to say how I feel. I wrestle with speaking the truth in love.
I read Psalm 32 today in the Bible reading plan. This verse stuck out today:
The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you.
Do not be like a senseless horse or mule
that needs a bit and bridle to keep it under control.”
I want more of that, starting today. I can see God’s hand guiding me over the years, bringing opportunities my way and closing the door on others. I see His goodness and mercy even today. I’m grateful I’ve gotten to walk this earth for so long. However, I need to have greater discernment and discretion. I want my ears opened. I need more than “just a little more Jesus”. I need as much as He will give me.
Thanks to all of you who read faithfully, family and friends I know in real life and those whom I only get to know virtually. May God bless you today.