Now What?

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I have something I want to say. It might not be popular.

I’ve been ruminating on the MeToo movement lately. It’s been in the news for a year, off and on. Most recently, it’s surfaced with Brett Kavanaugh’s nomination to the Supreme Court. I started thinking about how there’s no way to prove what he did, or if he did it at all. I believe Dr. Ford because I don’t think she’s a tool of the Clintons (!) or any other Democrats. Why would she come forward and ruin her good reputation, now forever colored by the scarlet letter of sexual assault victim? She could provide no probative evidence, like a stained dress, or an eye witnesses. Nothing. Only her recollection of a drunken teenage party gone horribly wrong.

Brett Kavanaugh denied the whole encounter. Vehemently. He ranted and raved. He got angry and lashed out. Righteous indignation? Perhaps. But it seemed out of keeping for a future Supreme Court justice. Again: it’s he said, she said.

I remember learning about Martin Luther King, Jr. when I was in first grade at Irvington Elementary. Our teacher Miss Jones passed out black and white coloring pages for us. He was – and remains – a great American hero. Then I wrote a blog about how Dr. King was a serial philanderer. He cheated on his wife, Coretta Scott King,  over and over. He was a Baptist minister and no doubt preached against adultery a time or two. He couldn’t seem to help himself. Yet he founded a whole movement of civil disobedience, turning the other cheek and standing his ground. How do we reconcile the two?

And what about the defeated Bill Cosby, now serving time in a Pennsylvania prison? Currently, he has no roommates and has only the guards for company. What of the funny family man who put out records, and toured, starred in the Cosby Show, and sold us JELL-O, for goodness sake? What happened to him? He inspired generations of young black men and women to do more, to be more. He encouraged them to dream big dreams and continue in school. He received several honorary doctorates for his excellence as a role model. Why did he drug and violate all those women?

There are so many more. I want to hit a little closer to home. Let’s talk about Bill Hybels, fallen pastor of Willow Creek Community Church. As someone who has been a secretary-type for most of her life as well as in the church, I understand the implications of the accusations and why his assistant didn’t come forward when he groped her. She “didn’t want to ruin his ministry”. What in the world?! I know it sounds strange. Nobody gets it unless you’ve been on the inside of church life. She knew how rumors and innuendos damage even the most spotless church leader. She struggled with the obvious anointing on the man’s life. She can see he’s blessed by God. But she knew the sin, experienced it firsthand. What to do? Well, if she’s a good girl, she says nothing. She shoves it down. God appears to have favorites, the Teflon-coated. She’s not one of them. She spirals down. He increases. She blames herself and the shame engulfs her. 

All of this needs to stop. We need to stop putting people on pedestals or in pinions. We aren’t all black or all white, people. Bad people have capacity for good deeds. Good people have capacity for bad deeds. What’s a person to do?

I have an idea. What if we tried to help people along the way? What if we paid attention to the tendencies of up and coming leaders and said, “Hey, I notice you have wandering hands. How about we work on that together? No shame. Let’s deal with it before it forms a poisonous fruit to destroy you and those you love?” Isn’t that real love, not a squishy feeling with a fuzzy heart around it. “Love is patient, love is kind…” This is 1 Corinthians 13 love. Strong. Hopeful. Wanting the best for another. 

Now, maybe this DID happen. Maybe these leaders were approached by their sympathetic elders. Maybe they rejected the help. Maybe the approach rubbed them the wrong way. Or maybe they had enough upper leaders or minions to cover their tracks for them. “Don’t worry about that, kid. She’ll never tell. It’s not a big deal. You have a great future ahead! God has really blessed you.” They had enough power to keep on keepin’ on hurting others.

I don’t know. I’m not privy to such information. All I know is we have to do better. We need to speak up when sin raises its head. And we need to listen to correction if we’re committing the sin. We know the judge and He will judge all fairly. The sin we all wrestle with does not define us. It’s not our identity. It’s an addendum to the original creation. We shall overcome, but only with Jesus.

For the time is coming when everything that is covered will be revealed, and all that is secret will be made known to all. – Matthew 10:26

 

 

Sloughing off

Warning: This post is going to sound vain. I don’t mean it to, but there it is. I’m still a girl at the end of the day.

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I haven’t been happy with my skin for awhile. My face breaks out more than I’d like. I have combination skin, some parts oily, some parts dry. I’ve been on the lookout for products to help calm it. When I worked out more, all that sweating helped it stay clearer and more vibrant. I also used to use Pro Activ products. I said goodbye to those tools a few years back. I find as I age, the gentler the product, the better.

So right now, after months of sun exposure on a near-daily basis (even with sunscreen) I have some sunspots. I also have some acne scars. Seems so unfair this late in life, frankly.

I saw a blog post about Korean skin care items. I’m not one to blow up the budget with expensive lotions and potions. I’d rather buy a pair of cute boots or something else that I can wear/use for a long time. It turns out I haven’t been exfoliating enough. Could it be that simple? Well, if it walks like a duck… I thought I would start there. We have all these layers to our skin. We have 5 layers within the epidermis, which is the top layer. I figure I can shed a few and get to the brighter, non-splotchy skin underneath.

Shedding our “skin” of shame, past disappointments and unrealized expectations is something God wants us to do. We have to leave behind the past.  It takes applying the word to our situation – There is therefore now no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1), if we confess our sins, He is faithful to forgive us (1 John 1:9), if anyone is  in Christ, he is a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17).

As I shed dead skin, I think about shedding the old way of living, of thinking, of being. I don’t have to be that person whose thoughts orbit in a negative pattern. I don’t have to beat myself up for failing. I rinse off the gunk and let it flow down the drain. I reveal a new woman, cleansed from her shame. I can believe for a brighter future because my hope isn’t in myself, but in Christ.

Scapegoat

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This morning, our internet was down.  Not the internet in the whole world, mind you, but in our house, it didn’t work.  I found myself doing Bible reading old school:  with my Bible in my lap.  However, my two eyes didn’t focus together. I still have the really great right eye contact lens and the just-shy-of-blindness left eye, lagging behind. I couldn’t read the words.  I picked up the hulking mass and held it out a little father away.  Maybe that would increase clarity.  Nope.

I read today’s selection from Leviticus in the original King James Version.  Oh boy.  As if Leviticus isn’t dry enough.  This was all about how sacrifices are supposed to go down. Then, to me, the most intriguing portion:

Aaron will present his own bull as a sin offering to purify himself and his family, making them right with the Lord. Then he must take the two male goats and present them to the Lord at the entrance of the Tabernacle. He is to cast sacred lots to determine which goat will be reserved as an offering to the Lord and which will carry the sins of the people to the wilderness of Azazel. Aaron will then present as a sin offering the goat chosen by lot for the Lord. The other goat, the scapegoat chosen by lot to be sent away, will be kept alive, standing before the Lord. When it is sent away to Azazel in the wilderness, the people will be purified and made right with the Lord. – Leviticus 16:6-10

The “reserved for the Lord” goat got sacrificed. After some blood-sprinkling from the Lord’s goat, the second goat enters the picture.  Why goats?  All the other sacrifices are cows, sheep, and birds.

“When Aaron has finished purifying the Most Holy Place and the Tabernacle and the altar, he must present the live goat. He will lay both of his hands on the goat’s head and confess over it all the wickedness, rebellion, and sins of the people of Israel. In this way, he will transfer the people’s sins to the head of the goat. Then a man specially chosen for the task will drive the goat into the wilderness. As the goat goes into the wilderness, it will carry all the people’s sins upon itself into a desolate land. – Leviticus 16:20-22

In case you were wondering, God is relaying these instructions to Moses for Aaron. It all feels otherworldly to me.  I don’t live in this time period. Our sacrifices are very personal things, like giving money to a charity or time to mentor a child. No blood flows, as a general rule.

This goat driven into the wilderness will have to survive on its own.  What happens to it, out in the wild? Goats, I’ve read, are known for their lively and frisky behavior. They will nibble on most anything, but have definite preferences for woody shrubs and trees (wikipedia.com).  Their curiosity upon discovering new smells drives them to taste inedible things. They show unusual intelligence, too, with an ability to climb slanting trees or simply up and out of their pens.

Which begs the question, again, why goats? Does something untoward happen to the goat as soon as it’s set free from its leadline? This tells us how God hates sin, of course.  It must be driven out of the camp.  But is there more here?

I think goats personify what often gets us into sin in the first place:  curiosity.  What would it be like to…?  To quote the serpent, “Did God really say…?” (Genesis). The goat literally escapes from the camp, bearing the people’s iniquities. He became sin for the Israelites.

What do you think?

East of Eden

Not this movie.

                    Not this movie. Though it’s good.

I started another year-long Bible reading plan today.  Yes! I’ll blog about it at times as I read.  It keeps me meditating on it and maybe we can get a dialogue going.  I certainly don’t have all the answers.  I do have questions, though.

Most people know the Genesis account.  God creates the world, populates it and creates human beings.  He tells them they can eat of any tree in the garden except the tree of the knowledge of good and evil (Gen. 2:16-17). Inevitably, it seems, the serpent/devil encourages them to taste it anyway.  “Try it, you’ll like it!” Eve nabs a piece.  She takes a bite and passes it to Adam, who does likewise. God knows, calls them on their disobedience, and curses the three individually.  The serpent will crawl on his belly and have hostile relations with all souls. The woman will try to control her husband (!) and have pain in childbirth (boo!). The man will fight thorns and thistles while growing crops and will only succeed through much effort. Also, the concept of mortality enters the picture:  “By the sweat of your brow will you have food to eat until you return to the ground from which you were made. For you were made from dust, and to dust you will return” (Genesis 3:19). God banishes His very first image-bearers from Eden. Before they go, he clothes them with animal skins.  Which means, of course, animals died. Welcome to the not-so-glamorous world of sporting furry fashion. Now you’re up to speed.

This is where it gets interesting to me, at least this time.

Then the Lord God said, “Look, the human beings have become like us, knowing both good and evil. What if they reach out, take fruit from the tree of life, and eat it? Then they will live forever!”  So the Lord God banished them from the Garden of Eden, and he sent Adam out to cultivate the ground from which he had been made. After sending them out, the Lord God stationed mighty cherubim to the east of the Garden of Eden. And he placed a flaming sword that flashed back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life. – Genesis 3:22-24

So the bigger threat, it seems, was the tree of life.  They didn’t eat from that tree. In fact, God didn’t tell them they couldn’t eat from the tree of life.  Why is it that we always want what we can’t/shouldn’t have?  I suppose it starts right here.  They could have lived forever, never tasting the bitter gall of death.  But Adam and Eve let the serpent trick them.

After their banishment, God placed cherubim to guard the east entrance to the garden. “None shall pass!” He put a flaming sword in front of the tree of life.  Guess guarding the tree of the knowledge of good and evil would be pointless now. This shows that Adam and Eve could still see the heavenly cast of characters – God and angels. The cherubim would scare them away, as well as any future descendants.

But it begs the question:  Did Adam and Eve ever try to reenter the Garden of Eden?  Did they miss the sweet companionship of God, walking together in the cool of the day?  Is that why God set up the blockade?  Were there other entrances? The text here is almost wistful.  I can picture the Lord in tears as he sends away his precious children from the paradise he made expressly for them. Did the first family wander so long they completely forgot its location? I wonder.

Blame it on the Rain

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It started raining yesterday.  It fell soft at first, then it picked up.  Overall, we got about an inch of rain.  It continued all night and into this morning.  Then it stopped.  Everything dripped – trees, eaves, power lines.

It got me thinking.

Every year, it seems fall enters with a dramatic flair.  Often a storm blows in, causing a sudden drop in temperature, moving the season from growing to dying. This year, it appeared like a silvery curtain.  I have a poem about rain.  Want to hear it? You know you do.

Music in the Rain

I hear music in the rain,
Loud and soft,
Hitting my window pane.
With trills and spills
It lands and splats,
Dripping and dropping all over the lane.
It warbles.
It burbles.
It dribbles.
It gurgles.
Endless pale river flowing from the sky,
Lulls me to sleep at night,
Like a wet lullaby.

Hey, I didn’t say it was good.

Today I’m considering how fall changed everything. Because of the Fall (get it?) we need Jesus.  Once Adam and Eve ate the apple, humanity couldn’t get back into fellowship with God.  Evicted from the Garden, they had to go their own way.  Sure, God still cared and guided.  But that sweet intimacy between Maker and created, so free and easy, disappeared.

Until Jesus.

Sin coats like rain. I know it sounds strange, but hear me out. It covers everything. Nothing escapes its taint. All of creation fell under the curse due to sin. Earthly life became plagued with strife and disease.  And yet, all can be reclaimed with the sacrifice of Jesus. He brings the new rain of eternal life and a new reign of righteousness. He engulfs us in His fresh rain of restoration.

A Dirty Word

It's in us.

It’s in us.

I’ve been thinking about sin and death today.

Yay!  You say sarcastically.  Way to be upbeat! Light Friday reading.

And you’d be right.  Sin and death aren’t happy topics.  In our culture, sin has become a dirty word.  But they do come up over time.  If you have a conscience at all, you will run into it.  It will flog you.  Sin can be intentional or unintentional, willful or not.  You will let yourself down.  You will hurt people by things you say or do, and vice versa.  People you know and love will die during your stay here. Eventually, you will join them.  Welcome to life. L’chaim!

My friend Brian wrote a thought-provoking blog today. He’s such a good writer anyway, but his written thoughts sort it all in digestible pieces.  You can read it here.  I’d like to use his ideas as a jumping-off point.

He outlines the way to become a Christian with three main points.  I like three points because of the Trinity (three parts of the Godhead), three days for Jesus to experience death and resurrection and three points make a sermon. So there!

The first step to salvation is:

A)  Admit you’re a sinner.  Okay, no sweat.  I have probably committed most of the 7 deadly sins in one way or another, not to mention broken a few commandments.  I don’t say that lightly.  It’s simply part of living with an imperfect nature.   Like the time I made fun of a cross-eyed girl who lived in our neighborhood…and her dad heard me.  Yeah.  My sin found me out right quick that time.  My sins – your sin – separate us from God (Romans 3:23).

B) Believe that Jesus is God. Kind of a strange idea, actually.  I mean, isn’t God the only God?  The Trinity remains a mystery. I don’t fully comprehend it. It’s always been interesting to me – and wonderful – that God would send a perfect replacement to die for me:  His only son.  Animal sacrifices never really got it done anyway; they provided a stopgap measure until Jesus came along (Hebrews 10).  Only a sinless one could take our sin from us.

Right here, you might say, This is a bloody religion. Yes.  But we don’t realize how much our sin keeps us from God.  We reap death from it.  Eternal damnation and division from God. That’s how bad it is.

C) Confess Jesus is Lord.  Stating it aloud with witnesses present is a start.  It’s living under His rule, day by day. It becomes joyful submission as His will for our life unfolds.  He has good plans for us (Jeremiah 29:11).

As I’ve aged, I realized “born again” looks different on each of us.  It’s less about the “don’ts” and more about the “do’s”.  Our unique imago dei means we walk out our salvation (with fear and trembling) down different avenues.  Sure, we may look good on the outside to others, but appearing holy will never wash with God.

Why in the world did God even do this?  Why not leave human beings alone?  They’re certainly messed up.  Look at our world today, plagued by, well, plagues, famine,  and wars.  Why not wash His hands of the entire kit and caboodle?  Deists think He did that long ago.

Relationship.  He wants us to be near Him.  He made us for it.  He loves us.  Giving us free will meant we could choose to love Him.  I know.  Honestly, free will seems like a mixed blessing. I think of it like giving a little boy a gun:  “Here, Timmy. Got ya something special! Please read the instruction manual, or you’ll shoot yer eye out.” Robotic humanity would have been so much easier on us all.

Today, though, I’m grateful I get to choose.

 

The Shame of Slavery

I am reading through the Bible in 8 months this time.  Originally, I resisted, then found myself hungry for more Bible in my life.

I read in Joshua 5 today.  At this point in the narrative, the Israelites crossed over the Jordan.  The Amorite kings west of the Jordan and the Canaanite kings along the Mediterranean heard about it.  They lost heart and became paralyzed with fear (v.1).

The Lord directs Joshua to circumcise this next generation of Israelites.  The entire first generation, the one with Moses, had all passed on.  The text goes on to say that nobody had been circumcised since the Exodus.  So, potentially 40 years of births and nobody had been, um, disfigured.  I guess they couldn’t spare the down time.

Verse 9 struck me:  Then the Lord said to Joshua, “Today I have rolled away the shame of your slavery in Egypt.” So that place has been called Gilgal to this day.

Huh?  I had no idea what that meant. Other versions say, “I have rolled away the reproach of Egypt from you.”  That didn’t help, either.  Looking up the meaning of Gilgal, I found Strong’s concordance which defines it as “circle of stones”.  Hmm.  Wikipedia says Gilgal is similar to a phrase in Hebrew meaning “I have removed”, which also fits.

Going back further, “reproach” means disapproval or disappointment.  This act of circumcision of all the of-age males cleansed the population from the shame, or disappointment, of slavery.  I question whether God was disappointed or whether the Israelites themselves were disappointed in their lot as slaves.  Probably both, I reckon.  Slavery, it seems, cuts both ways.

How did God’s people even become slaves?  The Israelites, occupying Egypt after the rescue by Joseph during the great famine, multiplied and grew under the pharaohs.  Their great numbers threatened the Egyptians (Exodus 1:8).  The Egyptians forced them into slavery.  Which begs the question:  Why didn’t God do something to prevent it?

Joseph’s last words were, “…God will surely come to help you and lead you out of this land of Egypt.  He will bring you back to the land he solemnly promises to give to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob” (Genesis 50:24).  Sometimes, God’s timing can lag, at least to our finite human minds.  In this case, it was 400 or 430 years, depending on where you start counting (Gen. 15:13).

Even though God knew His chosen people would live in bondage for a time, He didn’t leave them without hope.  Their slavery was always a temporary condition. I surely don’t have all the answers, but that’s the message I  take away.

As believers,  Jesus took our reproach when He died on the cross.  He became our permanent sacrifice.  We no longer live as slaves to sin. We don’t have to wait 430 years for another Moses to rise up.  He already came.  We can cast off the shame of our former slavery and live as free men and women.

Well then, should we keep on sinning so that God can show us more and more of his wonderful grace? Of course not! Since we have died to sin, how can we continue to live in it? Or have you forgotten that when we were joined with Christ Jesus in baptism, we joined him in his death? For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may live new lives.  Romans 6:1-4